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Fighting for Faith in the Darkness- Part 2

No House, No Baby, No Direction

We began packing up our home, first by taking everything down off of the walls. Things we could live without and were easy to put away. Room by room was packed, and it became increasingly hard to ignore that we were packing without a place to move to.

a white built in office with green upholstered chair and gold hardware with a gold chandelier

See Part 1 before you read today so you’re all caught up. 

Every day was exactly the same. I’d get up, read my scriptures, workout, get the kids moving and pack something away. I looked legit crazy.
I’d ask for boxes and people would say, are you moving?!

But I was praying. I was showing my faith. Building my boat. I knew God was aware of me and wanted to bless me and I wanted Him to know I had faith in that.

So I packed. Our house started to fill with boxes. And we were filling out adoption papers. Hoping and praying so much that with a move we’d also find some girl somewhere who’d let us love her sweet baby forever.

Empty Heart Full Spirit

My heart was empty and completely full at the same time. Oh how I ached to have another child just like everyone else. But ohhhh how I felt such an enabling power. I was being carried. The pain never overcame me because I was trying so hard to keep walking and choosing Him.

No house.
No baby.
No direction.

Feeling Forgotten

It felt as though we somehow were forgotten. Were we overthinking this? Lacking faith? Were we not listening and we were supposed to stay put?

How could we ever have someone trust us with their child if they saw my house 40% packed up?! They’d think we weren’t stable!

A photo of an empty crib.

I wanted to fill a crib. I wanted to spread our wings somewhere new with more space for my family. And ohhhh how I wanted to do it in a place where He needed me. 

And then He Spake

And then He finally spake. And I heard. I can hardly even write, my heart is so full and my eyes so wet.

Part 3 next week… but in the meantime tell me, have any of you ever struggled to find where you were supposed to be?  

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Cade and Carrian have three children and love to spend time together whether it’s vacationing or snuggled up on the couch for a good movie.

And this family especially loves to eat.

They love everything from the keep you fit and healthy to the get out your sweat pants indulgent and everything in between.

But most of all, they love the memories made, shared and treasured and it’s all thanks to a meal shared together with loved ones.

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  • love your story, can’t stand all the ads I have to scroll through to read it. Why all the ads.

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    • Thank you Jim! The ads are a big part of what allows us to keep doing what we are doing. We apologize for the the inconvenience they cause.

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  • Thank you so much for trusting us with your lovely story! I love the faith that God has given to you-and your reflection in your life-as well as your ability to share it with all of us. Blessings to you and your lovely family!

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    • Thank you so much Bonnie! Xoxo!

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